Random firing of my synapses

I really meant what I said, that our lives are in color now, but I have to tell you , although color isn't boring, sometimes it is painful and always it is challenging and often it is beyond difficult. But I don't think I would have it any other way. I really feel like what we are doing is making a difference, and I know that I am being refined in the fire. Sometimes I can feel him pulling ugly layers off of me and it HURTS!! Things are good between us as a family and I think that makes all the difference, that home is a sanctuary.Work is insane, I have no idea what I was thinking when I agreed to work with middle schoolers at a local Czech school when I couldn't speak Czech. But I see now that God set this up and it was good that I was ignorant because had I known what I was in for I would have said no...Now I see that He has toughened me up here and it has been like a boot camp of sorts and I have seen Him work through me at the school...and I know there is more to come. I have built relationships with the teachers and students and through these relationships we have seen our bible study grow...it is exciting and very overwhelming to see God move...I often feel like a bystander at some great play that he is producing. Some days it totally sucks. Like when I just can't get the Czech words out of my mouth to say what I need to say...some days I feel foreign and different, and even WEIRD. Some days my students are out of control and I hate my job and I get a migraine in the back of my eye and I have to drink wine to calm down. Some days Rebekah cries because school is difficult and I wonder if we made a mistake bringing them here. Then we pray and wake up the next morning and things are OK again. Then we have a day where we see God moving and we know we are right where we are supposed to be.