life in this republic

the end is in sight

Countdown to summer break: 18 days

I have a big problem. It is really a lifelong struggle I have had and continue to battle. I am good at starting things and not so good at finishing them. I love the beginning of the school year, the newness and the excitement. I love buying school supplies and planning the lessons. On the first day of school there is the feeling of unlimited potential. Everything is awash with the hope of good experiences. Now we face the final two weeks of school. This week we are taking finals and over next weekend I will be calculating grades. But the energy is gone, the enthusiasm drained, the hope beaten out of me. I find myself eager to go home and frustrated during the lessons. I am not being as strict as I should and, consequently, am finding it difficult to manage the classes, almost like I have given up. I really don't want to be this way. I would love to finish well, not crawl to the end, barely breathing, barely caring. I truly don't like this about myself. So, I am prayng for a renewed sense of God's purpose for me at this school, teaching these kids. This job is not just for money, and certainly not for my personal glory. This work I do is for Him who loves me so well though I grow faint and weary. He who lifts me up and gives me the strength and joy to continue. My desire is to glorify Him in the work that I do...