inspired

inspiration

I have been blogging almost daily for two years now and I ran out of steam at the end of 2011. I simply ran out of ideas, inspiration and energy. Taking a break from blogging after Christmas, I re-evaluated my blog and its contents and importance. Awaking every day at 5:30 to write and often sitting in front of the computer in a sleepy haze trying to type with fingers that feel ten times too big makes one wonder if it is all worth it. There have been seasons during my last 6 years blogging that I have been on a roll, so inspired by my topic or idea that I couldn't wait to get up in the morning to continue typing. (see "wisdom" series September 2010 or "hospital" September 2011)

But as of late I have felt like I was forcing it. The ideas weren't coming, the task a burden and the life documented  a tad boring.

Then I take a look at my blog posts from a few years ago and immediately I am hurtled through time and space to relive a day or week or month and I am thankful for these posts. I am grateful for every early morning spent fingers clacking away on keyboard keys, coffee my companion.

The last few days ideas have been coming to me again and I am hastily writing them down for future blog posts. I have dusted off the infrequently used camera to take more intimate personal pictures of our actual life here instead of pasting pictures found on random google searches. A new spiritual series is forming itself and has almost gelled in the labyrinth of folds comprising my brain. This much said, I am not ready to let my blog go. I feel there is a purpose to it, if nothing else as a reminder that each day holds meaning. There is no room for empty space, each moment is dear.

As I head off to get ready for work in a few minutes, after a three week break, I am ready to begin again, work, blog, new habits. Refreshed and inspired...